I broke the rules.

I'm a first-born.  I like to follow the rules.  But tonight I broke them.

I used taco seasoning.

I read the ingredients of all the different brands and really, none was "better" than the other, so I got the cheapest.  It had soy in it.  And a couple other unpronounceable ingredients, which is a big, fat "NO NO!" while on whole30.

(Sidenote...I don't know if it's whole30 or Whole30.  This bothers me).

Anyway, I've avoided licking my fingers or the spoon when I'm preparing something I can't eat and taste-testing meals I make for my family, but I gave into taco seasoning.

Shoot me.

Day 5 has been okay, actually!  I read last night Days 10-11 are the hardest.  Wonderful.  Like the first 5 days have been a breeeeeze.  Right.

I've decided my main craving is cheese and ice cream.  I've gotta figure out how to get some calcium!  I also crave what I can't have.  Oh wait, that's most everything.  Baked goods are hard to pass up.  But for some reason, overall, it's getting a little easier.

And I made it through Orange Leaf with minimal discomfort which is a feat in itself.

Part of why I'm doing this is to kick the associations I make with food.  For example, I'll start thinking about what to order at a restaurant the day before we go.  Or the first thing I want when it comes to celebrating something is food.  Even yet, I'll fixate on an event and what food will be present.  It's just a little out of control.

So now, I'm still thinking about food constantly, but at least it's about healthy food.  It's a start. Maybe I'll eventually think about even healthy food not-so-much.  That's my goal.  Well, and to lose weight and not be dependent on sugar for a "high."

Onward to day 6!  No more breaking rules.